The past couple of weeks have been a life lesson of the importance of resting. It turns out, I'm not very good at it. I love to be productive in my jobs and personal life...I love to get lots of work done and never fall behind in anything...I like to live up to my own expectations of myself. And the past couple of weeks I've begun to realize that sometimes I just can't do everything that I expect myself to do (or that I think other people expect me to do), and that's okay.
With this new trimester has come some new symptoms, the most concerning of which has been a major case of being lightheaded and beginning to black out at times. Fainting is not a new thing to me...I've dealt with this since adolescence. I've fainted at home, at the doctor's office (on multiple occasions), at church, and backstage during a play, to name a few. I've never dealt with chronic lightheadedness before though. Normally it's just been a one case thing, and then I've been fine. But for the past couple of weeks, I've felt dizzy and lightheaded on multiple occasions almost every day. And since I'm carrying our precious boy, this has been especially concerning.
I went to my doctor's office last week, and because of my being lightheaded (along with some other symptoms), they wanted to run some more tests to make sure everything was alright. When the possibility of bed rest was mentioned, I almost freaked out right there and then.
I don't have time to be on bed rest. I have way too much to do! There is way too much that is expected of me.
So far, none of my test results have come back with anything concerning (and bed rest hasn't been brought up again), and I thank God for that! :) But even though nothing seems to be seriously wrong, I still haven't felt very well. And I'm having to learn to listen to my body and rest when I need it. This has not been an easy lesson for me to learn. I may be sweet, but I can also be stubborn and set in my ways. And God is helping me with that. :)
Too often I will rest one day, feel like I earned my gold star for taking care of myself, and then when I'm feeling a little better the next day I push myself 2x as hard to make up for the time lost when I was resting...and then I end up being in worse shape than before. Not cool.
I go back to the doctor this week, and hope to get some more answers from her on what's causing all of this. In the meantime, God is helping me learn that rest is not a bad thing, and I shouldn't feel guilty about it...it's necessary. It's especially crucial since the way I treat and take care of myself while pregnant directly affects our baby...and that little mister's health is SO important!
All in all, I am doing GREAT! Even with these minor things, God has really blessed us with a healthy pregnancy...and a very healthy baby! I wouldn't trade this experience for anything in the world. :) And I am very thankful for my sweet husband who has reminded me to rest and who has helped take care of things when I can't. Thank you, husband!
Now for an updated baby bump...
Our little mister is getting bigger and bigger. At this point, it's hard to say how much he weighs exactly...but I'm guessing he's at about 3.5 lbs right now.
Here's a little glimpse of life lately (via instagram! username: tiffanyzajas)
1. The other day, we had a tornado come through Franklin...and it touched down right around the corner from our house (where we go for all of our evening walks!) It was a little scary, but I'm so glad God kept us and everyone else here in Franklin safe.
2. We've stopped at a couple second hand children's stores (Kid to Kid and Once Upon a Child) and have found some super cute clothes for Liam at amazing prices.
3. The sunsets here have been so beautiful lately!
4. I'm continuing to crave guacamole and yummy burritos...so we've gone to both Chipotle and Baja Burrito (our FAVE!) in the past two weeks :)
5. We went to a couple soccer games to see some of our students rock it on the field.
6. Made a trip to Hobby Lobby to pick up some supplies to make fun artwork for Liam's room. Can't wait to finish them and share with you later!
I cannot believe that we only have 10 more weeks to go! We are so excited for Liam to get here!
How's your week going so far? What have you been up to lately?
Love and blessings!
-Tiffany
Oh, how I love all your photos and blogging. :) I love to hear and sharing pregnancy/mommy stories. Resting/napping has always been hard for me too! Even now with my 2nd... I always had a hard time "napping when your baby naps." But it is so very important... Not only for your health, but for your sanity too. :)
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